I never intended to appear in three magazines in the past six months. In fact, I never intended to share my story of recovery from Binge Eating Disorder and Anxiety. But that's the funny thing about life...what happens next is not always what we intended. I sat at my computer less than a year ago, shaking as I hit the "publish" button for the oh, how she blooms! website. I immediately regretted it. I have never thought of myself as brave. All I knew is that my heart kept telling me that all of my struggles would be worth it if I could use what I had learned to help another. That was my goal. I will never forget the first person who told me that one of my posts led to someone she loved getting help for her eating disorder. I cried tears of relief and of empathy for that sweet girl. And then there was another story...another Facebook post...another new follower on Twitter and Pinterest. People were relating to my words...my story mattered.
When OM Yoga & Lifestyle Magazine contacted me about using one of my photos for the cover of their November issue, I honestly didn't believe anything would ever come of it. I saw the cover on Facebook several weeks ago, but not until it dropped into my mailbox yesterday did the magnitude of this accomplishment hit me. It took my best friend pointing out that I had been in three magazines in the last six months for me to even realized that had happened! I can barely wrap my mind around it. I am in awe of myself and that is a gift that is difficult to put into words.
I am grateful that my best friend and yoga teacher pushed me in my practice and believed in me all along. I am grateful that a great friend and amazing photographer made me feel so comfortable being photographed. I am grateful that my husband and son are my biggest fans. I am grateful for my therapist who guided me through the darkest times. I am grateful to my dearest friends who have supported me and loved me down this path. I am grateful to my family for witnessing this transformation. But most of all, I am grateful that I found the courage to hit the "publish" button and take this leap of faith. I am proud of what I have done and the encouragement others have drawn from my words. I am grateful for so many things, but today I will take time to be grateful for me.
Pictured Above from back to front: OM Yoga & Lifestyle Magazine, Mantra Yoga + Health, and Yoga Journal España