The problem with being a perfectionist is the “all or nothing” mentality that comes with it. The phrase “go big or go home” comes to mind. (If you are a fan of that motto, this blog post is not for you!) Although this black and white way of thinking is characteristic of perfectionism, it can be overcome and I am living proof of that.
I was faced with a big decision this week and my auto-pilot mode kicked into perfectionism overdrive. I should do this now and I should do it perfectly! Oh, that initial panic mode drives me mad! The fact that it starts by talking in “shoulds” is especially aggravating.
I was presented with an amazing opportunity. My interest was piqued and my curiosity ran wild dreaming of the possibilities. I could feel my foot pressing heavily on the accelerator, rushing into a decision I hadn’t even processed yet, the view melting into a blur.
Then something amazing happened. I shut down auto-pilot, grabbed the wheel, and took my foot off the gas. I took my time to make the right decision for myself. These are the steps I followed:
At the end of the day, what I really want most is to live my life without the eating disorder in it. Recovery is a process and I am getting there one step at a time. Today I took some time to simply enjoy how far I have come. I am blessed to have a family who loves and supports me and friends who do the same. I have a lot I would love to pursue and many lessons left to be learned, but, for right now, I just want to live my life and enjoy every minute of it. I plan to drink it all in and savor every sip!